Hmm …. I thought I would somehow sidestep some of the questions I posed, by hand-waving. Didn’t work. So Tor, my good friend, asked me to answer the question I asked earlier.

Here is what she asked: “so, my question for you is: why the need for rational when you are talking about interactions with people?”

Irrationality, like laziness, is a default for me. Like everybody else, I am start imagining a lot of things when I am interacting with people. Its only when I am working, reading, writing, listening to music that I attain some focus. Music is the unusual one in the list. It is the only one that I can internalize in a short time. Coltrane.

On one hand, I think about my interactions with people and invariably have to start sifting through my thoughts just so I can try and make sense of anything.

On the other hand, I have been given a lot of second chances by people I thought would have given up their faith and hope in me. Gratitude.

Therefore, if I am rational or at least when I try to be, then it helps me understand the reasons behind the good and bad things people say or do.  Understanding has the power to drive out most of the negative thoughts. This, of course, has the added advantage of having more time to think about work.